I have been meaning to blog, but it seems like there are so many things racing around this heart and mind of mine that I haven't been able to narrow it down to what exactly I wanted to say.
If you know me, finding just one thing to say is nearly impossible...so....
Let me start with Jessica Simpson. Yes, Jessica Simpson. ;) I was in Walmart the other day with my boys and the hubs when I saw a cover of a magazine talking about how devastated Jessica Simpson is with her weight gain. It had a very unflattering picture of her on it, as well of one in her pre baby days. So of course you could look at the side by sides and ooh and ahh over the change. Devastated with her weight!!!??? Um, didn't she just have a baby!!??? Ahh....I have so many thoughts on this.
First of all, my heart is broken that my boys see this crud every time I take them to the store. I do not want them to get an unrealistic message of what their wives should or should not be one day. And another thing, when did our society decide it isn't normal for a woman to change after growing a life inside of her body for 9 months?
I was just very reminded that attacks come in all forms. For me personally this is an attack. I am so disappointed that I allow this junk into my soul and mind and focus so much more on my exterior than who I really am, my heart and mind do not belong to this earthly body. They belong to my Creator,to the one who deems me worthy,to the one who is enthralled by my beauty (Psalm 45:11.)
There is a song that I just love and at the very end it says "anything I put before my God is an idol....anything that I can't stop thinking of is an idol....." If Satan can't get me with the certain attacks I have been able to defer, he will try and get me with something else. And to my everlasting shame, I all to often fall into this trap and don't even realize it. So I am working very hard to make my compassion more bountiful, to make my words softer, and to make this flesh take a backseat.
P.S. healthy weight is good, brushing your teeth is good (especially if you are in my face talking to me) I am not knocking hygiene or wanting to look like you actually take care of yo' self. I am talking full on attack on women's confidence here. If Satan can keep us focused on ourselves (either because we think we are awesome or never enough) then you are not focusing on the ONE who demands your thoughts.
